I walk through
the halls of time
Remembering memories
of past lives,
Of days where my hands
and mind, unbound,
Found me in happier
places;
Like fields of golden
sunflowers, and lovely
Beaches on the coldest
of winter nights
Where we gazed upon
the ocean waves
Violently breaking
over the dunes.
We used to sit on the
lifeguard’s chair and
You talked on about
your troubles, your
Hopes, your dreams,
and your fears.
All the while I offered
nothing of myself
In return.
How selfish was the
silent girl--half listening,
Half dreaming of finding
the love of her life
Waiting for her far
beyond the last warning
Buoy, rocking and
tossing from the
Whispering winds.
I seemed to be listening,
yet I was preoccupied
With some insignificant
self-defeating train of thought,
Some wretched mystery
I had created for myself.
Now that I am lonely
again, my friend,
I expected to find
you here waiting for me.
I half expected that
you would see what a
Fool I have been to
expect anything from you at all.
Forgive me friend,
for I have sinned.
February 6, 1998
--Kim Clemente